The End; The Beginning.

Two weeks ago today I did a thing. A crazy, exhilarating, terrifying thing. I quit my job at Target. Let me say that again in case you didn't hear me right: I QUIT MY JOB. The job that has been the foundation of my life and supporter of my family for the past eight and a half years. I put in my notice before the end of my leave that I would be giving up a steady paycheck to help chase down my husband's dream of owning his own business. A business that will allow my work/life balance to be more in tune to what my needs are as well as those of my family. Four days on, three days off with the kids, most weeks. A job that will require A LOT of hard work and juggling, but that allows me to work with my best friend everyday. No more worries about not spending enough time with my husband!

Honestly, it still hasn't sunk in yet. This is our first full week of work together and we're already putting contingency plans in place as work has been moved out due to weather. Judah has been in daycare all week and my heart is not nearly as heavy as I had anticipated. I just feel too good about the path we're on to let any of the hurdles and changes we've seen get me down. I know without a doubt that this is what we're supposed to be doing in our lives right now. I am now even more of a supporter of following your intuition. 

With all of that being said it was not an easy decision. The people I've worked with for the past almost decade are some of the best I've ever met. Many of them feel like family even if we don't see each other as often as we used to. The friends I made saw me through the lowest of lows and kept me laughing when I needed it. Some still work downtown, others have moved out of state to chase their own dreams, yet others have moved on to other companies. I am so thankful that I am able to stalk keep in touch with most everyone through social media. I am so grateful that this company gave me the opportunity to meet so many amazing, and at times awkward, people. The stories we have I will remember for decades to come. Pretty sure the people who sat in the aisles across from us had HR on speed dial and our files are full of "Things You Should Never Say At Work" documents. 

I grew up while working there. I started when I was twenty and quiet as a church mouse. I hated it when I started and was convinced I wouldn't last a year. Then I got placed on a team that brought me out of my shell and turned me into the obnoxious lady I am now. Seriously, when I first started I had little to no confidence in myself, especially in the oh so foreign corporate setting. The first few years I learned my strengths and weaknesses and learned that my voice was valuable and worthy of being heard. I learned to challenge not only myself but others as well. To hold others accountable. To push for what I needed and wanted. 

I did my first legal in the US drinking at work Happy Hours. I went out on boats and to clubs and shows with the people I worked with. They became good friends.  Honestly, there are too many people to even start to give anyone shout outs. I had so much fun on the four teams I was on over the years. Each team had it's own vibe and ridiculous cast of characters. I was only more recently made aware that my presence on my last team caused all conversation to cross the line way more than normal. So I guess I can add the skill of "Wildly Inappropriate Conversation Derailer" to my resume.

It was a great run Target. I'll be keeping my eye on you. It'll be a long time before you no longer feel like "my" company. And to all my former coworkers: I love you guys. Keep in touch. You know where to find me. And it won't kill you to drive out to the outer 'burbs once and a while, I swear.


And the Winner Is...

The winner of the $50 Matilda Jane giftcard is
Elsie is going to look adorable in her new Matilda Jane outfit! Email me your address and I will send the giftcard on its way.
Thanks to everyone who commented for your kind words!


Happy Little Thing - Vol.2

Proof of that ONE TIME I won a lunch time game of Farkle. I found this among the things I packed up from my desk last week. I miss my work family like whoa so I'm glad for these little reminders of the wildly inappropriate lunch conversation days of yore.


Want to join in the happy? Leave a link in the comments section to your own Happy Little Thing post. 


New Baby, New Body [& a Matilda Jane Giveaway!] - Closes

It's been six weeks since Judah was born. My third pregnancy, third birth, third postpartum body. In many ways this third time has been a charm, but when it comes to loving on your postpartum body, well, this time has gone just like the last. Shock and awe, dosed with a bit of frustration. I'm always in awe that my body was able to create and nurture three human beings. I have no problem with the way my body changes during pregnancy, it's the aftermath that can be frustrating. When I'm no longer the vessel for another life I just kind of want to feel like me again. The body you're left with can feel so foreign and just kind of off. It's not necessarily bad but it can be so different than what you're used to. 

I'm still wearing maternity pants with no prayer of fitting into my regular ones any time soon. Some of my old shirts fit but some are way too tight (thanks nursing!). I'm in the in between stage where you have to seriously consider buying a new wardrobe for the interim since you have no idea how long it will last. You're in a no (wo)man's land because everyone loses the pregnancy weight on different timing and from different places. No one can tell you your future. You can either choose to dwell on it or you can choose to accept it and move on. I choose the latter, most days.

Matilda Jane sent me some fun Spring clothes during this in between period and I was so thankful to have something cute that fits. I immediately tried on the shirt and the dress when they arrived in the mail and loved how they felt. They are forgiving in the best ways to a new mama who has new curves. The dresses are exactly what I'm looking for to fill in my summer wardrobe: unique, bright, and stretchy! They also have the cutest summer clothes for little girls and now babies!

I want to share this part of me because it's real and it's a place so many women find themselves. And I don't want to feel bad about my new body or leave this part of my history out. It's my here and now and I'm thankful to have a few fun new pieces of clothing to help me embrace the current, not bad just different, me.
I also want to share another Matilda Jane Clothing $50 Giftcard with one of you internet friends! Whether you're looking for something for yourself, a friend, your daughter, or just a cute little baby you know, Matilda Jane is sure to have something great! To enter leave a comment on this post with what you would buy and for who. And feel free to share any of your own postpartum body image thoughts if you feel so inclined! I'd love to hear your experiences too! The giveaway will be closed Thursday 4/17/14 at midnight with the winner announced Friday morning! Happy Matilda Jane hunting!
[Disclaimer: Matilda Jane Clothing sent me the above items in return for a product review post. I was not compensated in any other way and all opinions are my own.]


Happy Little Thing

A few posts ago I wrote about happy. And then I stumbled across this quote (thanks Tumblr!): 
I couldn't find the author but this sentiment expresses exactly how I feel about happiness. It is not a consciousness level that you magically unlock and then are happy for the rest of your life. There is no "happily ever after" in this life. Life is full of ups and downs, trials and triumphs. If you are on the lifelong search for eternal happiness you will be disappointed as you will fail.
What we need to focus on instead as humans is those small moments of happy in our lives. Because sometimes life is hard. Sometimes it is dark, and scary, and hopeless. And finding anything to be happy about feels impossible. But it's finding those little glimmers of light in the dark that help you get through those long days, months, years. Keeping your eyes open just enough to see that small speck of light may be the tiny bit of hope you need to keep going.
Other seasons of life happiness is abundant, it's everywhere you turn. Puppies, sunshine, and rainbows are around every corner. In those times it's so much easier to just BE HAPPY. But since those times are usually fleeting it's important to cultivate an attitude of finding the good things in your life no matter how small. Because all those little things add up to a lot if you just take the time to notice them.
On Wednesdays going forward I am going to post my "Happy Little Thing", something that struck me over the past few days that made me stop and smile. It could be a photo, a quote from my kid, a song, a moment, anything. It may involve a long explanation, it may have none. I'm going to leave it open each week so others can feel free to join in. We are our own biggest obstacles on the road to leading happier more content lives, so let's work on getting out of our own way!
Happy Little Thing Volume 1
"Go West" by the Pet Shop Boys
A Tumblr friend mentioned these guys and I couldn't help but think of this song and smile. I can't listen to it without singing and dancing and thinking of how relevant the song lyrics are to my life. And the video is terrible! I mean, what?!?! The song still rocks though. 

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